Life's Mixture

I have been thinking a lot about life. I wish I was better with words so I could explain the odd mixture of thoughts, almost all positive, about life.

Life, at least this morning, appeared to be a unique mixture of emotions, current facts, history, expectations, wild dreams about the future, obstacles, trials, and past memories and experience.

At any particular moment in time one or more of those elements will be on the forefront of my mind. This morning, my mixture was a combination of past memories of being a child and experiencing the holiday season in the safety and magic of grandma's house mixed with the current facts that I will never be 8 years old again and grandma isn't capable of walking up and down stairs by herself.

It was an odd mixture of feelings, including many that just plain hurt.

At the same time, the mixture also produced warm thoughts of satisfaction.

Finally, I began to wonder if my children are developing good memories of their childhood so when, years from now, they too have a morning mixture similar to mine this morning, that the negative would be outweighed by the positive.

DJ